my cup of tea

2011-04-26T01:16:00.000-07:00

I DO NOT BELONG HERE.

I know it.

I quit facebook for a week or so.
Lets see how much control I have over myself.
MotherF!

Girls are dumb.
Guys are dumb.

ef it. science is my boyfriend.

2009-12-22T03:40:00.000-08:00

I went shopping yesterday.

[because, if your name isn't Kris Corpus, ill break your heart]
Boutique by Forever21 $22.80

Forever21 $15.80

Forever21 $12.80

Conair Candi Sticks Hair curlers. Target $19.99
[excited to see if they work well!]

Sexy Mother Pucker Extreme Plump. Target $9.34, originally $10.99
[this stuff is amazing!]

2009-12-22T03:38:00.001-08:00

This is going to be good.

so happy i could cry

2009-11-25T01:57:00.000-08:00

i woke up in an amazing mood
because of you. showing me
the faith i still had deep
down.

please dont leave ever.
again.

and i wont either.

2009-11-23T16:40:00.000-08:00

2009-11-23T13:55:00.000-08:00

im dead to you, right?
dont worry, i wish i
were dead too.

if there really was
some place called
"hell" that people
go to and i believed
in it, yeah i would
be going there, and
i wouldn't be afraid
because nothing can hurt
more than you have
hurt me, DRACULA.

better ask your
"god" to forgive you
because im not going to.

2009-11-21T01:04:00.000-08:00

"Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you."
--Nietzsche

And I keep telling myself that I have become a monster.

2009-11-19T17:05:00.001-08:00

i took the block off of aim.
ill stay signed in all the time now.

show me a sign.

convo with mother

2009-11-19T16:57:00.000-08:00

idk if im dealing with more depression or pms this time.

why wats wrong

idk still sad, i just gotta get over it.

makes me sad for u to be sad

well breaking all those hearts finally caught up to me and karma is getting me good.
luckily i have some really great friends here to help

try to think of it like this, what is he was where ryan's ex is that would hurt so it could be sooo much worse

i dont like thinking of that

i know but i thought it might help by putting things into perspective

i already thought about that but it just makes me think i need to be with him in case something like that did happen

2009-11-19T16:51:00.001-08:00

another night of pretending, holding the tears back, and forcing the smiles.
faking the adoration, loosing new moments with the ones stuck in my head and
blocking out all of the good in front of me.
they told me to just cross him out of my life.

will they ever understand?

2009-11-19T12:17:00.000-08:00

its like suffocating.

We could..

2009-11-14T17:02:00.001-08:00

But we can't.

She takes the cake.

2009-11-14T14:11:00.000-08:00

"AH! How cliche is that?! A cupcake birthday cake."
Woooooooow. LMFAO.

2009-11-12T22:47:00.000-08:00

"there is always one person who you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it always happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people even if some of these lovable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. You will remember having conversations with this person that never actually happened. You will recall sexual trysts with this person that never technically occurred. This is because the individual who embodies your personal definition of love does not really exist. The person is real, and the feelings are real–but you create the context. And context is everything. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and theyre often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else."
-Chuck Klosterman.

2009-11-12T22:36:00.000-08:00

My manager asked me a million question about the cigar burn on my wrist.
Thnx! Mega props to you, sir.
For catching me off guard, fck.

And MJ's "Remember The Time" just now coming up on shuffle.
REALCUTE, Michael.

Can you feel the heartbreak in the room?

--

Movie Pick #4: Lost in Translation

2009-11-11T01:48:00.000-08:00

We were lost in translation.
I wanted to cry so much harder for the ending...

K!

2009-11-06T16:01:00.000-08:00

Now I know why Kryptonite is spelled with a K.

A Kris & now a Kiet.

2009-11-06T14:47:00.001-08:00

Last night he woke up and told me he had a dream that I left him and he bought a plane ticket & passport to search for me.

++

"Lego My Heart"

2009-11-02T23:24:00.000-08:00

lolz, again with the relevancy.

2009-11-02T23:22:00.000-08:00

A real Lego heart.

I won't be here forever.

2009-11-02T00:57:00.000-08:00

I forgot to call you on your birthday
You swear you the last thing on my mind yeah
There is nothing I can do to fix it
All you ever asked me for was time

When our lives don't glow the same way that they used to
And I finally get a moment to myself
I will realize you were everything I’m missin
And you’ll tell me you’re in love with someone else

So can you do me a favor?
If I pull it together
Make it sooner than later
We wont be here forever
And ill realize I waited too long
But please don’t move on
You don’t need no one else

You just changed your hair and it looks perfect
Wish I was the first to let you know
Every chance I get to make it better
I just find a way to let it go

When our lives don’t go the same way that they used to
And I finally get a moment to myself
I will realize you were everything I’m missin
And you’ll tell me you’re in love with someone else

So can you do me a favor?
If I pull it together
Make it sooner than later
We wont be here for ever
And ill realize I waited too long
But please don’t move on
You don’t need no one else

The girl or the world
You see someone gotta lose
I thought I could have it all
Do I really gotta choose?
What good is all the cash
If it doesn’t buy time
And what good is being famous
If im never on your mind
Nights falling
Lights glowing
And im just tryin ta pay the price owing
And I don’t wanna feel the comfort from my ice showing
And I aint tryin ta be with out you at the right moment
Nigga nice going
Is it worth it?
That decision
Cuz hearts breaking
I aint tryin ta be in that collision
So im dust my shirt
And fix my pants cuz I better look good girl if this my chance I swear

So can you do me a favor
If I pull it together
Make it sooner than later
We wont be here for ever
And ill realize I waited too long
But please don’t move on
You don’t need no one else

iSay

2009-10-27T00:34:00.000-07:00

Salamat to the
Filipino lady at
work today & she
told me "at least
you know more than
my son does" hehe.

no one gives a fck.
you dont give a fck.
neither should I.
JaneBond, my a$$.

salamat 4 tha costly earningz!

JaneBond

2009-10-26T09:53:00.000-07:00

in action, as you wished.

My pho face 0:

2009-10-24T11:53:00.000-07:00

AngelBitez!!!!

Got em last night.
I absolutely love them.

JustinBear is an amazing piercer:
myspace.com/piercingsbyjustin [:

Sleepy Hollow

2009-10-19T01:20:00.000-07:00

Dang & Sassy
She loves him.
♥

We rented Sleepy Hollow tonight,
OMG what have I been missing?!
A possible favorite.
& Yeah I got teary eyed when the book
she gave him saved his life, awwwwwe.

BANG!

2009-10-17T14:49:00.000-07:00

I suppose this means war :D

2009-10-17T04:21:00.001-07:00

I am about to let myself fall so hard that I'll be saying "cross what?".

DRUGDEALER

2009-08-29T17:55:00.000-07:00

WOW, what a piece of shit you are.

2009-08-25T15:31:00.000-07:00

So, Spencer came to visit from Florida and he left this morning.

We had fun, I'm going to miss him.
And this was probably the best summer of my life.
And school starts tomorrow. Yaaaaay a new chapter.

2009-08-18T21:03:00.000-07:00

I think it's bad luck to boast so I wont.

Say Hello Sassy.

2009-06-24T00:51:00.001-07:00

dangerously dangerous

2009-06-09T15:20:00.000-07:00

Monica needs this dress for the summer.

2009-06-02T14:38:00.000-07:00

i always like to capture sad moments.

Mister Corpus

2009-05-14T23:04:00.000-07:00

"the next time i see you son, im gonna kick your fucking ass!"

TWIT

2009-05-07T12:33:00.001-07:00

im a twit now.

follow me.

twitter.com/_m0nicaftw

yall

2009-05-07T09:09:00.001-07:00

the cool kids say yall too.

AYFKM?!

2009-05-06T22:15:00.001-07:00

AYFKM?! by m0nicaftw featuring Forever21 sneakers

LovCom

2009-05-05T01:25:00.000-07:00

Wanna relate to me? Wanna know how I feel about all of this?

Just watch Lovely Complex.

Starstruck

2009-05-04T23:51:00.000-07:00

When it gets closer to my birthday (JULY12) I am going to write about all the things I learned at the age of 18.

This age was not fun nor easy but I did indeed learn so much.
Possibly too much on the subject of LOVE.

Anyway, I am going to be a college drop out & tour the world.

SIKE!
cannot be MAJOR without an education.

HOOPLA!

2009-05-03T21:40:00.000-07:00

MUTO

2009-04-29T00:15:00.001-07:00

MUTO a wall-painted animation by BLU from blu on Vimeo.

Pop Opera

2009-04-27T18:27:00.000-07:00

If Soap Opera was a subject in school,
I would get an A++

Along with procrastination.

If Art Was a Person

2009-04-26T06:52:00.000-07:00

Dear Art,

Thank you so much for inspiring me like you do.
Thank you for holding things down when it gets tough for me.
You always pull through.

_Monica.

luvsic3

2009-04-25T15:29:00.001-07:00

the lingering appeal was so unusual.

2009-04-23T19:18:00.000-07:00

apparently im a fkn slut
bc i can express art through my body.

Who Knows?

2009-04-23T02:38:00.000-07:00

I just remembered my dream from the night before. Remember I bought a fish & it died? Well in my dream I was out clubbing or something, yes i was clubbing with my fish carrying it around in a glass bowl, some doctor suess shit.

Some cracked out bitch was fucking with me like I dont even know how to explain. Well I had to leave my fish unattended. The next morning I go over tooooo _______ house. And there is my fish happy as pie.

So much symbolism.

Turnt

2009-04-22T23:29:00.000-07:00

A LA MODE.

& no, not with ice cream.

Gettin Up

2009-04-20T22:52:00.000-07:00

bigthnkyou to my favorite pinoy, Kris Corpus, who instead of getting all smoked out tonight, did my math homework for me while I had to work.
"good look" lmao.

but SRSLY, it means more than you know.
<3

A Week of Sunlight

2009-04-17T13:34:00.001-07:00

I Poke Her Face

2009-04-15T12:37:00.000-07:00

Yeah, it's relevant.

kross my heart.

2009-04-12T14:16:00.000-07:00

"Here's a toast to the sacrifice"
VA/AZ

Boys Boys Boys

2009-04-09T20:47:00.000-07:00

I am definitely feeling like Carrie Bradshaw right now.
Although, I am such a Samantha. fck a Mr. Big!

anyways are we the owner of our hearts?
i dont have one duh. But still.
I gave away a key to a false lock.
do i feel guilty? Never.

"love it when you call me legs,
in the morning buy me eggs"

Collaboration

2009-04-06T00:41:00.001-07:00

ppl wanna be just like you.
ppl wanna be just like me.

COLLABO lyke shit.

Real Kings

2009-04-05T02:06:00.000-07:00

"..now if you work for the bread thats baked by the man with dirty hands and he wiped on his pants, wouldnt you wanna open up a bakery just for the fakery? i mean, cash rules everything in this creamery.."

The Moon Cannot Be Stolen

2009-04-02T19:36:00.000-07:00

Ryokan, a Zen master, lived the simplest kind of life in a little hut at the foot of a mountain. One evening a thief visited the hut only to discover there was nothing in it to steal.

Ryokan returned and caught him. "You may have come a long way to visit me," he told the prowler, "and you shoud not return emptyhanded. Please take my clothes as a gift."

The thief was bewildered. He took the clothes and slunk away.

Ryokan sat naked, watching the moon. "Poor fellow, " he mused, "I wish I could give him this beautiful moon."

Possibly Maybe

2009-03-30T10:35:00.001-07:00

"You paint with your bamboo brush and ill make wise faces"

12:51

2009-03-29T14:21:00.000-07:00

My father just made reservations at the Hollywood Roosevelt for July.
Can not wait to visit my favorite city again.
Laying at that pool will be complete utopia.

maybe ill get a tattoo on hollywood blvd.

A Cup of Tea

2009-03-29T14:04:00.000-07:00

Nan-in, a Japanese master during the Meiji era (1868-1912), received a university professor who came to inquire about Zen.

Nan-in served tea. He poured his visitor's cup full, and then kept on pouring.

The professor watched the overflow until he no longer could restrain himself. "It is overfull. No more will go in!"

"Like this cup," Nan-in said, "you are full of your own opinions and speculations. How can I show you Zen unless you first empty your cup?"

Citrus

2009-03-27T23:59:00.001-07:00

Human Behaviour

2009-03-26T19:19:00.000-07:00

I am going to take a step down.
You do your thing, I will respect that.

This is taking way too much of my emotional energy.
And making me tired.

Just remember there is true love and then there is false love.
Try not to confuse the two. I know where I stand.

On a lighter note:
I'm starting to make some of my own summer clothes out of my older clothes.
Very funnn, & I also bought a Henna kit, cant wait to get started!

月うさぎ (Rabbit And Dance)

2009-03-24T00:39:00.000-07:00

Charcoal is like love..

fun, messy, & always fading.

I fxcking hate my drawing class.

Ain't No Sunshine

2009-03-19T13:48:00.000-07:00

He is ecstatic that you're done for.
And that's sweet like a cupcake.

Tell All Your Friends

2009-03-17T14:17:00.000-07:00

Im a villain.

AIM

2009-03-09T00:15:00.000-07:00

"and I was like, I will handle that."

I got a fortune cookie that says BUY THE RED CAR.
Only one person knew the actual meaning.

Let's Stay Together

2009-03-05T01:33:00.000-08:00

Oh yeah, on valentine's day I opened a fortune cookie:

Love is like paint... it makes things beautiful when you spread it, but it will dry up if you don't use it.

I thought it was amazing.

U R the One

2009-03-05T01:29:00.000-08:00

You are making the biggest mistake of your life, but whats new?

Start Again

2009-03-05T01:19:00.000-08:00

As one exits another enters.
FKN life!

I ate a flower yesterday.
Like a bunny.

This is my cup of tea, not yours.

Smile Like You Mean It

2009-03-04T09:32:00.000-08:00

Not to mention that yesterday was absolutely insane.
To think I have actually started to talk to Ryan Flynn again.

I hear a man calling out to me and he can barely breath, I cant find him and I am worried. This guy is going to die in my presence, if I don't do anything about it, it will be all my fault. I keep searching for the voice and I cannot find it anywhere. So I call 911 and say, "I need to call in an emergency." and then I wake up and start to get ready for school.

I come to school and there is an ambulance and fire truck out front of school.

Road Novel

2009-03-02T23:55:00.000-08:00

Its hot outside and I can't wear shoes anymore, YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

Evolution of Man

2009-03-02T23:17:00.000-08:00

I miss the excitement of finding anyway possible to check my imeem messages for a message from you. That is how I was so intrigued. Why cant it be that way again. How that was our only form of communication. It showed how music was what kept us together.

About Us Now

2009-03-01T21:45:00.000-08:00

I have started making bracelets again, its that summer weather again.
It feels so nice. I want to wear ten bracelets on one hand, so far I'm at three.
I bet you want one.

I hate music right now, it pisses me off.
Especially when I sing those sappy 90's love songs on the radio at work.

I hope I wake up feeling refreshed tomorrow.
Maybe I will go read some more about Buddha.

Im gonna go pass out now.

Erasers eventually wear down to nothing.

You're My Only Hope

2009-02-26T01:22:00.000-08:00

Monica: What are the chances of R2D2 landing on Luke's planet with the princesses message?

Marco: Like the chances of two people meeting on the same website.

Amnesia

2009-02-25T23:55:00.000-08:00

Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. It is the bitter potion by which the physician within you heals your sick self, so therefore, trust the physician and drink his remedy in silence and tranquility.

_Kahlil Gibran.

O Saya

2009-02-19T22:07:00.000-08:00

So I am now in love with the movie and with Dev Patel.
I cried from beginning to end.

D. It is written

The Perfect Beat

2009-02-17T21:13:00.000-08:00

Singlocity.

Where the fuck is it?
HAHHAHAHALMFAOHHAAHAH.

Bird Sanctuary

2009-02-11T00:09:00.000-08:00

Young Folks

2009-02-10T23:13:00.001-08:00

That thing I said about true friends, pssh that was a lie.
So much for a little bit of hope, c'mon Barack.
I love the fact that I don't give a fuck like James Bond.
WTFE.

I love this dude.

81summer

2009-02-09T00:40:00.000-08:00

I really want to go to my Grandma's in the summer.

Love Bomb

2009-02-08T21:39:00.000-08:00

I went to a club the other night & it
was fun, finally I have taken advantage
of my age.

Marco comes to Tucson on Wednesday!! XD

I got a much needed haircut today.
And the Grammy's gave me the sudden
urge to listen to old Blink 182, hah.

Have you ever had the feeling that
someone was too scared to dump you?
Just wondering.

Driving is a lot easier than I would have ever guessed.

What Ever Happend

2009-02-04T09:54:00.000-08:00

Apparently I have a twin porn star
Apparently I am a neo-hippie.

Anyways, I am way too busy right now and it effing sucks.

Got a free burrito at Chipotle today, that was pretty good.
My health is sucking lately.
I would love to sleep for 24 hours right now.

Night Therapy

2009-01-31T20:12:00.000-08:00

Credit to Siggi Eggertsson for the new layout inspiration.

AHEM:

Yes.

Also, I need to get on my next art project.
I am just lacking in organization and overloaded with procrastination.

Inauguration day was amazing

2009-01-25T17:42:00.000-08:00

packed metros, I was there!

someone please,

2009-01-25T10:53:00.001-08:00

tell me why I care?

I'll be your buddy anytime

2009-01-16T21:02:00.000-08:00

Happiness.

2009-01-16T20:47:00.000-08:00

I bought my first Buddha today.

All that we are is the result of what we have thought: it is founded on our thoughts, it is made up of our thoughts. If a man speaks or acts with a pure thought, happiness follows him, like a shadow that never leaves him.

Why am I still awake?

2009-01-12T02:13:00.000-08:00

My mom just walked in my room & asked the same question.
My eyes are heavy with sleep tugging at them.

Anyways, my mind doesn't race but it sure does take a lot of work to ignore so many rushing thoughts. Not like I have the patience to explain myself on here or to anyone at all. Blogs are a delight to read.

I love the girl that I am.
A couple questions though.

If you say the fact that I don't want you makes you want me more than would you want me if I wanted you?
You might have to read that more than once to understand completely.
But it does make perfect sense.

Is it all true? A taste of my own medicine? One cannot trust another if they cannot trust them self? medicine. shmedicine.

ihaveconfidence & itsallineed

2009-01-06T12:41:00.000-08:00

If I don't find my way in a tanning bed by the end of this day, I may go bonkerz.
This no sunshine thing is killing me.

2008-12-21T11:34:00.000-08:00

imeem is for music, NOT lurking.
you're only hurting yourself.

i love my job
im still sick
i have a boyfriend
im going to virginia on wednesday
i havent seen any of my friends in awhile \;
i say no to bad things (;

& i can't help but be a bitch at times
& i don't mind that.

121808@240A

2008-12-18T11:05:00.000-08:00

Your vibe surely brings out the best in me.
Shing02 knows how to speak for anyone that has ever experienced love.

2008-12-16T21:21:00.001-08:00

I swear, sometimes my life is straight out of an indie film.
I can't wait for my plane ride! XD

hahhaahhahahaha

2008-12-12T10:51:00.000-08:00

"cause half you clowns is nerds that beat off to West"
OMFG im sorry I had to, I just heard that in a song, it was amazing.
HAAAAAAAA.

2008-12-12T10:09:00.000-08:00

HEHEkasjdoiqwhreoa<3 hmmm

2008-12-10T17:46:00.000-08:00

I am so excited for my holidays away from home.
I am so excited for all of my classwork to be finished.
I am impatient, 2 more weeks.
I am in Psych class right now.
I am really hungry & can not wait for my turkey burger dinner tonight.
I do not see why I didn't bring my lap top to class sooner.
I like the sunshine.
I need to go Christmas shopping.
I love good music (can't stress it enough).
I have very strong feelings right now.

2008-12-08T10:11:00.000-08:00

I have the biggest most expensive Christmas list this year.

I need to go Christmas shopping real soon too.

Life is all types of exciting PLUS complicating.

Motivate me.

2008-12-01T14:13:00.000-08:00

my new water bottle

2008-11-27T23:05:00.000-08:00

I had no idea what to write about for my first post so, I decided to write about my new favorite thing, my water bottle.
It's pretty amazing. I got it last night when my dad and I went to Whole Foods. No leaks. Adorable. Keeps my water cold.
As I drifted off to La La Land last night, I was sipping on it. I woke up this morning with it by my side, no spills or leaks or anything. I LOVE IT.

Yeah, pretty weird topic to write about, but whatever.
Well worth $20.99

I have work at 7AM in the morning, can not wait. (No sarcasm included)